Me is happy!
Me haz a new job! And it involve a dvds store, working wiht nice people who, once in while, work in the professional cinema industry on sets.

My boss is pissed off, because I just told him I leave Monday, because I start my new job on Tuesday...but hey, he deserved it, if you treat people like crap, don't you think it's come back to you one way or another. So screw you Mr. The, soon to be, ex-Boss!


This post deserve a Misha pic of doom!

Beware this post contain ranting about real life, whining, crying, depressive thoughts...

You know what? I feel like shit!
I haven't posted in a long time 'cause, you know, my life is so full of shit and stress lately that I did not want to talk about it here. But just today, I exploded. And I thought, why not? Why not post it on my lj? This is the place where I feel free to write whatever I want..and I feel like writing it all down would actually make me feel a lot better.

A couple months ago I made a post about my plan for the future in four steps. Two steps are now checked out of my list: ''Get a little job'' and ''Take the professional cinema class''. I wanted to keep the small job to get money and pay my university debts..thing is, said job is fucking crappy. I got this job in a grocery store, where I'm a fucking cashier. I thought it was going to be easy and smooth. Wrong! The place is messy and I'm working with non educated people (seriously..ALL of them are so freaking dumb!). The whole grocery is just a mess. My boss does not know how to manage it. There's not enough employees, he's doesn't make good schedules, he's always calling people to come in because he forgot that it was going to be a busy day, etc, etc. And fuck, he is on my back ALL THE TIME. He's so freaking jealous I went to university, he treats me like a fucking brainless blonde. Talks to me like I'm a stupid teenager, and is always saying that I'm doing everything wrong. I f I come to him and say something, his answer always starts by : ''Yes, but..''. He's yelling after me in front of clients..he's, well, non profesional.

If it was only for the boss...I mean this job is humiliating. I have a freaking diploma and I have to work in this shit hole. I need the money. Mean clients think I'm stupid, and I have to smile and agree to everything they say. I don't think I deserve that. I really don't. After all the efforts I put..I think I deserve to have a reward somewhere. If only I had a good push in the right direction, but feels like all the doors are closing on me. As soon as I saw this job was crappy, I started looking for another. Anything, close to my domain, close to cinema or photography. I send out resume and etc. I got answers, did interviews (6 to be exact). And all I get?''We'll call you tomorrow if you get the job''..and then no call. None. Nothgin at all. Last one I went was for a touch-up artist for a really cool profesional photo studio. I did 4 interviews there, passed a Photoshop test. And the people there liked me, they told me I have a great personality, I'm good at the work. And then: ''We'll call tomorrow if you get the job''. That was yesterday, and I could really feel it. And I really really loved the place and that would have been a plus on my resume. I was so sure I was going to have it. I mean 4 interviews and people telling you they like you. Then no call. Zero. I called back, and no answers.

Then I just crashed down..crying for an hour. Because I feel so fucking trapped in my crappy job. I'm having nightmare about it. Seeing myself as a 40 years old woman still at the same place. What am I doing wrong??? I come to an interview, looking good, smiling, making the interviewer laugh, confident...I always come out of the interview with a good feeling, and then I get nothing. Fucking nothing. I'm fucking depressed..I mean if I can not have a job there, would I be able to have one in cinema when the time comes? I'm starting to doubt it, I'm starting to doubt in myself. And right now, I feel like shit. Why isn't life smiling at me like it did in the early summer..why can't I get another job. I'm tired of hearing ''Everyone has passed by this period'', because I want mine to be over real soon. Or those saying '' Why don't you go back to school, maybe it'll help you get a job''. No thanks I want to do what I love, and what I love is cinema, sets, etc. ''The why don't you look for it now?''. Because there is no job at the moment, nobody film in winter with snow.

Recently, I'm stressed, I'm tired, I don't feel like doing anything. Seriously, my job is killing me slowly, each day. No wonder my muse is gone. I can't draw, I can't play piano, I can't edit video, I can't photoshop. It's like my inspiration is gone, anything that has to deal with artistic stuff is just dead in me right now. And I don't see my friends so much. I just...feel like shit. There's no other word.

OMG! EPIC! Really I feel like I have words there!

SPOLIERS SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS SCROLL DOWN AND CLOSE YOUR EYES IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE SPOILED!!!

Seriously, how better can this show get? I mean this episode was really really good. There was so much going on in there, I feel like I need to watch this on repeat all day long.

Castiel using cellphone. Bwhahahaha. And Dean's amulet?! Omg, something to find God?! Love the fact that he takes sometimes before giving it to him, and he says ''Don't you loose it!''
War, one of the four hrosemen of Apocalypse, was a creepy creepy guy. The actor who played him, wow, he gave me chills.
What War says to Sam, his need for power, his lust for demon blood...noooo Sam you can't go dark side, you're stronger than that. On an other side, how scary is it that is dark side is so similar to a demon.
Dean talking about Mount Doom,priceless XD.

And the ENDING. Nooooo, I mean just no! How the hell can Dean sit there and think this is alright. They were always more powerful together not separated. This is actually the first time in the show they decided to go separate ways (not argue or whatever). Looks a lot like a decisioin John would have taken. It's like I couldn't watch Sam get into that tuck, while Dean sitting there watching. He even asked him if he wanted the Impala. And Dean never share his baby.
I can already hear crazy fans that are surely gonna go and start wank, about how Castiel is gonna become Dean's new sidekick, while Sam would be left out of the show.

New promo O_O



Oh and yeah, how amazing was that scene where they were entering the ghost town while the song Spirit in the Sky by Norman Greenbaum was playing. All I needed more was a little slow-motion and it would have been perfect. Lollll

Ok O_o video is weird, but I like the song so much :D.

R.I.P Patrick Swayze.

Even though you played in some cheesy movies, some of them were classics that we would never forget; my fav, Dirty Dancing and Ghost.

Since kaliweir nicely asked for pics, I could only answer yes to her request XD.

Last month, camy_rocks and I finally went to the AC/DC concert in our city. And it was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! Best rock show I've ever seen in my life. Worth every dollars, no, every cents I paid for it. If you're a fan of the band, and you have a chance to see them, just go! It was epic! Not only does Brian Johnson still have his powerful voice (seriously it's like listening to cds, they sound amazing live), but Angus Young is just unbelievable! Guitar solo after guitar solo..and his 10 minutes solo blew my mind away. That guy is really unstoppable!

Littles videos I was able to get at the show:


Annnd the pictures. Sorry about the watermarks, but I had to do it since I got one of my U2 concert picture stolen once. Someone made a banner for a website out of it and claimed the pic as their own, argghh. camy_rocks has more pics, but I don't know when I'll be able to get copies.

WARNING THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR SEASON 5! AND THEY ARE NOT IN A LJ-CUT! So close your eyes and scroll down because there are pictures from the premiere and quotes.

I'm finally back! Just in time for the premiere! Let me explain quicky. My COMPUTER crashed last week. There was no connection between the screen and the computer. I first thought it was the screen because my computer was working on another one, so I threw away my screen. Next day, my computer does the same thing..meaning I threw away my screen for nothing. I went to that little electronics shop that repair computer, to see what it was...turns out the motherboard just died on me!!! But those guys were nice, I only paid 100$ for everything; a new motherboard and service. If it had been 200$ and more, I think I would just have let my computer die..and get a Mac. But looks like it's good enough to work for a year or more..I can wait for a Mac lolll.

SUPERNATURAL is back! Yayyyy! I have watched lots of tv shows this summer (got hooked to True Blood, watched like all season 1 in a week loll), but seriously nothing beats a good episode of Supernatural. I thought episode one would go smoothly, and have lots of dialogues and nothing really shocking...I was soo wrong. There was jaw-dropping moments, action, dark humor..well, everything that you'd expect in Supernatural. The first minutes, O-M-G. Last season opening had the beautiful cinematography (RIP Kim Manners), and now it was a ''blow your mind''/''wtf'' opening. Here's my thoughts onsome parts of episode one: Sympathy for the Devil (which, btw, is the tilte of a very good song from the Rolling Stones).

Recap: Thunderstorm by AC/DC! Speaking of which, the song sent shivers down my spine! Because, I haven't posted pictures yet, but I went to see AC/DC in concert..and OMG, most amazing, epic concert of my life. A real rock concert with fire, explosions, long guitar solos! Angus Young is such a guitar god!!! Anyways back to SPN, I'll post my pics and vid in a next post loll.



So Lucifer is coming ...and Sam and Dean are trapped. There is this piercing sound...at first I thought this was coming from Lucifer, but then camy_rocks noticed that this was the sound Castiel was making when trying to talk to Dean last season.



''What the hell?''
''I don't know?''

White flashes of light and then! Bam! Devil cartoon! Sam and Dean on a plane! WTF???!??! What the heck happened?!



Sam and Dean are flying over the place were they were, big explosion..O_O



I think Dean would never take a plane again. There is this same piercing sound..if Cas was dead at this moment..who saved them??? Who took them to the plane to avoid the explosion, who saved them from the crash???



Awesome, awesome, awesome title! Season 4 and 5 are my favorite so far.



''I learned that from my friend Cas, you son of a bitch.''

Nice Dean! You've learned your lessons..and Cas is dead? No he can't be!



''Dean..''
''Sam! It's ok, you don't have to say anything.''
''That's good. 'Cause what can I even say. I'm sorry, I screwed up. That really won't do it justice, you know...''

I really don't like that..Sam tries to explain himself to Dean, but he can't find the words. Dean doesn't seem ok with that at all.



Mhuhahahahaha! Wincest fan! I know a lot of fans were offensed, but really, that was hilarous! And as much as people don't want to hear this, I'm sure there is a fan somewhere just like this. Also...what the hell?! She thought Dean was ugly, are you blind?! If I was her, I'd be rubbing both their chest, lolllllllllll.




''You're damn right, you didn't listen. You were reckless and selfish and arrogant''
''I'm sorry''
''Oh yeah. You're sorry, you started armageddon! This kind of thing don't get forgiven, boy. If by some miracle, we pull this off, I want you to lose my number. You understand me.''

Yay for Bobby being back!!! What he said to Sam... I kind of have this hate-love for Sam. I feel like someone had to tell this to him, that it's not just a little mistake he's made, but a big one. Not only that, but the fact that he turned his back on his only family; Dean and Bobby. But..he was being manipulated by Ruby. When Dean died, he was alone, sad, depressed and wanted to die and she could easily make him do whatever she wanted, using his thirst for vengence. What shocked me is that Dean didn't even stop Bobby...like he wanted to say those things to Sam. The last part, about forgiving his number was a really low blow. I even had tears in my eyes..Bobby went too far there.



Bobby talking about what John said about Sam had me suspecting something. How the hell could Bobby said those kind of things. You could be mad at Sam, but not to the point of wishing to have killed him when you had the time. Again, Dean didn't argue a lot. Normally, he would be boiling with anger and telling Bobby to screw himself for saying things like that about his brother.



Turns out Bobby is possesed! Bonus point for this cap, because Dean belly! Happy trail! Lollllllll *is a perv*



''Ruby?''
''Try again. Go back further.''
''Meg.''
''Hi.''

I'm kinda of happy to see Meg back. I liked her back in season one. And really, that new actress is great! She surely did her homework and took from the attitude the other Meg had, I could recognize the character *coughGenevieveCortesecough*. And I like her accent, lolll, don't know why.



Wow, that kiss seemed good. Meg flew away, but I hope to see her back inthe same meat suit.



''It's you chucklehead. You're the Michael' sword.''

O-M-G. Dean is Michael's vessel! *jaw drop*



''Life as an angel condom!''

Mhuhahahahahahaha! Best quote! Even if Dean refused, I think it would have been kind of cool to see him possesed by Michael. See him have powers..being out of character.
I'm also starting to like Zachariah, as a bad guy. His powers are creepy!



CAS!!!!!!! *run around screaming* Cas makes an epic entrance, kicking ass! He's my new hero.



''How are you...''
''Alive. It's a good question. How did these two ended on that airplane? Another good question, as the angels didn't do it. I think we both know the answer, don't we.''
''No, it's not possible.''
''Scares you. Well it should. Now put these boys back together and go. I won't ask twice.''

Eeeekkk! Is he talking about God?!?! Was it God?! Btw, Cas pushing Zachariah away, amazing.



''...it'll hide you from every angels in creation, including Lucifer.''
''What, did you just branded us with it?!''
''No, I just carved it into your ribs.''

Nice one Cas! A place where no ennemies could get rid of this protection. I just love Dean face when he says he carved it in their ribs, lolll. And why does Cas doesn't answer as to how the hell he got back?! God?!



Lucifer, played by that woman was amazing. The things Lucifer was doing to Nick were pretty creepy, but somehow, the way Lucifer talked..it was soft, peaceful..heck, if I had been Nick I would have said yes too.



Bobby not being able to walk again? No way! He's Bobby! He'll get through this. Again Dean reaction! When Bobby said it was the demon talking, that he would never cut out Sam...he seemed disappointed.




''I just don't...I don't think we could ever be what we were. You know? I just don't think I can trust you.''

Thanks Kripke for breaking my heart just then! Like I said before, I have this love-hate with Sam. Dean can not forget him just like that, for turning his back on him..it's gonna take time. But meanwhile, poor Sammy!

Did this Supernatural vid lately and thought I'd share.



Enjoy!

Best Supernatural duo picture ever! XD

*Thanks to ckll for posting those new stills!

I just saw a job offer pop-up; in a kind of store where they sell books/cds/dvds, I just send my resume by e-mail and hope they'll call me!

A small job for now is the key to ''my four steps plan for my future'' 
1- Get a small job, get money
2-Pay university debts, pay the class so I can be in the big cinema/television association/syndicate and have my member card so I can work on sets
3-Look for a job in the cinema/television industry
4-Get a job in the cinema/television industry...and live happily forever lolll

So,please, let me have this small job!

Director John Hughes passed away today from an heart attack. He directed most memorable movies such as Sixteen Candles, The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller's Day Off and was the writer of other iconic movies like all the Home Alone, Beethoven and my all time favorite; Christmas Vacation with Chevy Chase.

R.I.P John Hughes

SPOILERS ALERT! Don't read past this if you don't want to be spoiled!

Paris Hilton will be guest starring in Supernatural!!!

http://perezhilton.com/2009-08-05-paris-hilton-gets-supernatural#respond

My frist thought was: what the hell?
But then, I can't wait to see what her role will be. I think she'll probably play herself and the show would just make fun of her. I hope she's gonna meet Dean, it would be hilarous to see his reaction XD.

I have been having weird dreams lately...I mean really weird, that has no senses. I'm even wondering if they even mean something.

1 - Two nights ago, I had this dream where I was with a class under a highway. The teacher was giving keys to some student, I happen to be one of them. We were going boat racing and I was going to drive a boat. Then magically, everyone was in a boat. We were on the St-Laurent (which is the river that surround Montreal) ans we all had the same type of boat: a nice, long and red sport boat. I was teamed up with Misha Collins (wtf?). I started my engine and we saw a team push too fast on the accelerator, the nose of the boat went up, and then it sank vertically. We took off and Misha kept yelling at me to go faster and faster. I was winning, and at some point we were having fun and laughing. And then a wave hit us, and our boat sank. We swam back to the shore and the teacher was laughing at us..and Misha was so mad he wasn't even looking at me anymore. I asked him if he wanted me to help him find his way home, but he refused and walked away.

2 - Last night, totally different landscape. I was high up on snowy mountains. The funny thing is that I had my summer clothes on and I was not cold. There was this old house, really spooky..and somehow I knew it was haunted. camy_rocks told me she had made a tunnel in the snow to avoid passing inside the old house. I went in there and it was really really long. I was totally freaking out inside the tunnel, afraid it might break and fall over me. I was screaming her name, and then I heard her scream back from the other side of the tunnel. I climbed fast and we met outside. After that, there is a piece missing..I was only able to remember the end of the dream. I was driving a black Jeep, camy_rocks at my side. We were going down the moutains at full speed, afraid of something (I don't know what). I turned my head to look behind the Jeep, worried. Dean Winchester was there, naked, sitting on a huge tire that was attached to the Jeep with a rope (wtf????). He was clinging to the tire, but he managed to wave at us.

It's always funny when you wake up, and then goes immediately: What the heck was that????

Anyways! Since there is not so much activity on my LJ, I decided to post something. I made some manips a few weeks ago...and this is total random crack, but here I go.









camy_rocks and I are also fans of Tom Welling and Michael Rosenbaum (I don't like Smallville anymore but I like them)..and it was three am, and my sleepy (not to mention stupid) brain was wondering: ''Mmmm what would have happened if Tom Welling, Michael Rosenbaum, Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki were casted on Lord of the Rings instead of the roles they have now in their series''. And this is the result. Hope this is going to make you laugh as much as it made me laugh XD!

People from my city did this tribute for Michael Jackson...and I was aware of this after it happened. For once something great is happening and we know it after.



Take a look, it's great. The minister of immigration and some cops even participated.

You still live through your music Michael!

I just found this link for those who wants to follow the panel live:

http://www.dreadcentral.com/page/live-from-san-diego-comic-con-2009

Enjoy!

Today is the 20th of July.

And exactly one year ago, camy_rocks, another friend and myself where on the road to California.


The first day was spent crossing the New York and Pennsylvania states. One trip I will never forget and one trip I might do again someday ;).

But anyways, on to my life. I'm officialliy in vacation!!! My training, which was the best I could wish for, is done. I had so much fun in studios, I will never forget my team and how welcoming and friendly they all were. I learned so many things, I could not thank them enough. Now the show is done, I can't wait to see it on tv. I've seen the actors these past weeks make interviews on talk shows, and they were talking about this scene or this other scene, and I was like in front of my tv ''Omg, I was there when it happened''. My training showed me that this is really what I want to do.

School is also DONE! Forever..My grandpa says ''Never say never'', but no I'm not returning to school. I'll have my university diploma soon, I appreciated the experience, with meeting new people, learning new things, going to weird parties...but really school was never for me. Sitting for hours listening to someone talking. No I prefer doing stuffs, working, filming, etc. I'll probably take some classes in animation, 3d effects, or in camera. But those will be also professionnal training. Also, to start working, all I need is a little course. Because you see in Canada you have to be syndicated first before working on sets. You take this course one weekend, and then you are part of the syndicate. Now my plans are to find a little job, get money, pay my university debts, pay this course and THEN find a job in cinema lol. But I'm confident. I came really close to having a job with another tv network here. I meet up with the director and he really liked me. But he needed someone ready for the next monday and since I had school 'til late July he had to choose someone else. But! I was his first choice, so that's probably means I'm competent ^_^.

As you can also see, my mood is way better than my last LJ post. I have been working my ass off since January, and I finally took some vacations. 6 days off to be exact. camy_rocks was going to Atlantic City with her mother and she invited me. This was a last minute travel. In 3 days, I got myself a passport (because before July 2009 Canadians could pass the US border without needing one) and talked with my teacher to change my exam date to a week later. It all worked fine and I could leave.

So, we went to Atlantic City!





It is a pretty place. I really enjoyed myself there. I wish we could have stayed longer. It was so sunny and warm there. Oh and I burned almost my whole body. The sun cream was not strong enough. Now most of my skin is peeling off..yay new shiny skin for me lolll. It was really relaxing, I like the ocean so much, I like it sounds and it's so beautiful, I can even describe it with words. I came back home, sun burned, happy and relaxed.

It was good to go somewhere else for a while..because seriously our summer here in Montreal is crap! It's been raining or extremly cloudy 6 days on 7. I feel like I'm living in London or something. Arghhh, to quote camy_rocks' icon: I hate it here. Loll.

Sometimes, I think my iPod really know how I feel.

For one, when I put it on Shuffle, it always play songs that we used to listen to on our roadtrip.
And today, in class, I was just randomly looking through the ''Extra'' section and I clicked on ''Clock''. This is what I got:



It showed me the time in California. I put it on last year, around this time,so I would know what time it really was when we get there. *Heavy sigh*. I wished I could be there, in this ''three hours difference'' timezone.

...Sorry if I'm bothering with my melancholy

Stolen from kaliweir!

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends !




01. Your Middle Name:
02. Age:
03. Single or Taken:
04. Favorite Movie:
05. Favorite Song or Album:
06. Favorite Band/Artist:
07. Dirty or Clean:
08. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
09. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' stuffs) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Ahhhh! How I wish I was in Cannes right now! Beautiful weather, great movies, lots of celebrities, and yeah a movie festival inside such a gorgeous landscape, next to the beach..paradise, lol.


How the heck does Brad Pitt manage to be more handsome everytime he appears on a red carpet..feels like I'm watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, loll. Oh and Angelina Jolie is sooo gorgeous there.


Ok, I have to admit it, I love Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. I appreciate their individual acting talent, and they make such a great couple. Go Brad and Angie!


Robert Pattinson is so funny. It's impressing how many faces this guy can make on a red carpet. He always seems uncomfortable in front of reporters and papparazzis..poor guy gets too much attention to his linking.


Today we had such a weird weather, it was all rainy and really cold, and then suddenly at 2h30 pm, the sun came up and the temperature went up quickly.
As for my training, it's goind really well! I still really loves it. We are starting shooting Sunday, 5h30 am :S, too early for me, but I love being on sets and all, so I thikn it'll be a rough wake-up call but I'll beexcited all day long..anyways I'll talk about it when it's done, lol.

With that I'm off to sleep. Goodnight people!

WHAT THE HECK?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT WAS THAT ENDING?!?!?! LEAVING US LIKE THAT FOR MONTHS...I'll tell you the truth, KRIPKE IS EVIL, HE'S LUCIFER!!!

Arggggggggg I want season 5 now!!!!!!!

Here's my lastest SPN vid! It's an episodic of It's a Terrible Life versus the Winchester's every day life. I had this idea since I saw the episode..and it took me a little while to put together this video.
Enjoy!

Warning: Spoilers up to 4x20 The Rapture

P.s Watch in glorious HD please, lolll